the past six weeks have been a bitch.
it started with a flurry of doctor’s appointments after i found a lump in my right breast. my grandmother had cancer. my mom is currently under treatment for breast cancer. standing in the shower at 11 pm on a saturday night with a lump in my breast and a strong family history of breast cancer did me in. i cried for hours.
four doctor’s appointments, three ultrasounds and an MRI later, the doctors are almost positive that it’s not cancer. praise God.
next, i applied for a fellowship that i was a little too certain that i’d receive. when i got the email that i hadn’t even been selected for an interview, i went numb. i’m not accustomed to failing.
thanks to a bomb therapist, i recognized two things: 1.) don’t run from sadness. it’s part of the journey and 2.) too much of my self-esteem is tied to success. it’s been a source of validation my whole life.
however, failing doesn’t make me a failure.
in order to be comfortable with failure and growth, we have to remember our worth comes from within.
so here i am. learning, growing and most importantly, rebooting my self-care practice to get through all the feels of the last month and a half. i’m clear that what confines me today, can be my footstool tomorrow.
will you join me in dedicating 21 days to self-care and joy? it’s only a three week investment in what makes you smile.
plus, i’m giving away a FREE happiness project toolkit to get you started and track your weekly reflections. click here to receive it by email.
in a world where happiness is marketed as owning material things and mindfulness barely exists, take this time to celebrate yourself. get in touch with what brings you joy. you deserve it.
get to ready to love up on yourself like never before. august 1st starts a new journey. let’s get happy!